in the name of Allah, the most gracious , most Merciful...
alhamdulilah... syukur pertama kali kehadrat Die.... i dunt noe wut to say act... ths post is spcially ddcated to my Rabb.... thx a lot... after dz one yer.. i've been tested dgn bnyak sgt ujian... one by one.... klo nk cter alot... hilang kwn2..hilang die my mr teddy bear... act... buat ak sedar... after all.. after quest by quest... ap yg aku buat slah... i did gve everythg... i did usaha... i didnt smoke... tak mnum arak... solat jer... but y kne tested mcm nh... ader org lagi truk.... y me? day pass day..month by month.... i cried all night.. mandi pun nngs..nk tdr nngis... nk mkn nngs... bgn tdr pun nngs blik... smpai satu ketika Dia bkk pntu hati suh bce artikel2 islam...bce mula2 sbb seronok..ntah..just suka2... then.. satu artikel dtg... satu lagi artikel dtg...suma nya same ..cter ttg cinta pada ALLAH...i did quest myself act... best ker cnta pada allah ni... yelah... u boleyh mngadu pada die.... tpi mcm mner nk dgr pa jwpan die.... like cnta one side jer.... subhanallah blum try blum taw.... so dri situ.. i was like suka bce artikel islam... lbh pada nk cri ketengn dri...how? tpi tak nk la lbh2....
tpi all answer no mattr how hard i refuse to accpt...lead to one answer only...go back to Him.... just try go bck to Him.... hati msih kata tak nk... tkut nk mngadu kat die...tkut nk buat solat taubt... tkut nk bgn mlm2.... takut nh suma smntara.... tkut just rase sbb ak dlm ksusahan... maha suci allah.. di yg pgg haty manusia...klo n bcnta or fall in love among mnuasia... serahkan dulu cinta dan hati pada pmilik... " thara, allah yg pggang hati die... klo thara nk die syg thara blik...berdoa pda allah..Die mmpu lmbut kan hati org itu" terngiang2 trmimpi kata2 seorg tman... thx allah..kuarkan ayt2 tuh dri mulut tman ak tuh.... klo Allah itu tak iznkan those words tak mgkin tman dpt ilham...ssghnya bnyak cara ko bercommunicate dgn ak...
dlm pyh..ak try..at least try..mgadu dn mngis pada die.... cbe mncari somethg.... but i didnt noe... nk cri ap...minta pada allah bri sket kebahgiann... but tak thu kbhgiaan yg mcm mner... tbe2 kuar lagi ilham...thara, cbe try istikharah...at frst tkut...tkut klo2 jwpan yg dpt tak pihak pada kita.... jwpn frst hanya ktenagn jer yg dpt... subhanallah..walau ader part in ths world yg tenang..rasenye tak dpt buat ak tenang setenang mlm tuh... hnya die pemilik ketenangn itu....nite by nite.... alhmdulilah..jwpan yg kita cri ...alhmdulilah..mkn nmpak... ak hnya perlu bersbr... tringt satu kisah nabi allah...die nh ader pnyakit..hilang sume bnde...dipnjara...tpi berkat ksbran die .... allah pulangkan blik suma milik die..mlah dpt lagy yg lbh baik.... bertmbah2...
ak pegang jnji allah yg itu... I trust Him... dan rasenyer...die mmg bnar2 mngetahui hati ak... brkat sbr.. i found the other love... cinta pada ALLAH... dunt noe how to dscribe... tkut nk trime gak.... besar sgt rase die... klo boleyh nk peluk...nk kiss Die... i just in love wth Him... n skrg pun hati berdebar2..bile tulis pasal nh.... bnar...cinta die cinta hakiki.... i just hope..perasaan ini tak hilang..
thank u sbb kurniakan rase tenang...
thank u sbb bg feeling nh..
n most importnt...tlg jgn tarik....
p/s: love u
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